H-How you doin' that? How you doin' that?

So, I am in my Latin America class and let me tell you, I love Nicaragua but, I just don't care about when the Spanish got there or that it is 70% Mestizo, 10% African and 15-16% European or whatever I am not even sure if the last figure is what my teacher said about 30 seconds ago.

I am ill, I want to squeeze my head so that it juices like a sponge and relieve the pressure.  AND I am pretty sure that when I e-mailed my boss, she thinks that I had partied too much in Madison and that is why I didn't go.  I honestly am just sick, not hungover from a Saturday night.  Jeez!

I am in love with Madison, I honestly felt so excited when I was in the city.  I love Winona, don't get me wrong but, I love the atmosphere of Madison.  People are all so hardcore and not lame and there is so much to see and do!  It is the capital city and has one of those scary one-way round-about thingies which I successfully avoided.  I don't regret going to Winona but at some point in my life, I want to spend some time in Madison.

Today I took pictures for my friend's photography class.  I did it once before and the teacher thought the picture she chose was like an album cover [:-)] and this last picture was supposed to be a metaphor for something and she had me crying over split milk.  Like don't sweat the small things in life and I am excited to see how it turns out.  I had make-up all over my face and I looked ridiculous and my roommate locked me out when I went to take the pictures.  Jeez amers I mean goodnight!

I really need to get in the mind set that there is not much left to the school year and I need to stay focused on getting my grades up to my standards.  I have been extremely lazy this semester and I need to buckle down.

My.chin.hurts.

Largest chimple of my life!! (chimple n. - chin pimple)

Oh well I better listen to this dude talk about loans and yogi bear? What? Oh my lanta..

Toodles!

Dear Mr. Blog,

I would like to submit a formal apology to you because of my severe neglict. There is only a couple things I can say to explain myself. The first is the most obvious.

FIRST: I have the attention span of a small child in a toy store. Sure the doll entertains me for a couple minutes but then I see the newest version of The Sims and I don't even remember dropping the doll let alone getting myself home. Not saying that the entertainment value of you is a doll compared to The Sims. That game is sweet...

SECOND: Can we say busy? I mean seriously, you already know that I got a job this semester (P.S. I am at work lol) but I also got the position to be an RA next year and had to add that to my schedule! When do I sleep? I don't know! Usually on the fu but hey, it's comfy.

THIRD: I couldn't remember my password and didn't want to change it. About three minutes ago I decided that I probably should change since oh hey I don't remember it!! And I have been at work for four hours and I am hearing Kelly Clarkson "My Life Would Suck Without You" again at this very moment even though I swear I didn't hear it too long ago.

There are my excuses for not writing. I will make it up to you. Redesign you and make you all hip. It will be fun like a manicure or facial to me. Get pumped.

I must go now Mr. Blog, I have a meeting in 6 minutes and I can't be late! Love you.

Sincerely,
Stephanie

Toodles!

It Is What It Is

SO, it has been a looong time. I have been to Christmas dinner with the family and to a New Year's Party with all my friends from high school annd started a new semester in college since the last time I wrote in here! Let me tell you, I have gotten into some shenanigans but, really nothing I care to divulge into. I will say my mood is that of a menopausal woman. One day when I probably should be really cranky and angry at the world I couldn't make myself frown if I wanted to and then other days when everything is going swell, getting my homework done early and everything, I can't seem to make myself do anything! It is the strangest thing and it reminds me of an episode of Grey's Anatomy when a guy had a tumor which made him react the exact opposite of what his feelings should be. Obviously I don't have a brain tumor (knock on wood) but it's just that weird. Anywho, I am now in the 1 of 6 Americans who have gotten their identity stolen. I either left my wallet open and flailed it around in my pocket to make my debit card slip out of its leather strap or someone took it out and decided they were Stephanie M. They bought gas, stuff from Wal-Mart and Walgreens! Just a great day for them probably got those needed groceries and condoms or whatever you get at Walgreens you can't get at Wal-Mart. Then at the exact same time, I bent my second ID of the year and had to get a third, I think that they should have just given that one to me for free. They had other plans of course. Oh did I mention I lost my key to my dorm? I'm guessing it is with my debit card. The guy that is supposed to change the locks should have been here yesterday but I'm guessing he will be around sometime today while I am at work. I can't wait to be able to lock up my room again, it has been nerve racking just having it be open to the world. On the upside I have a job in Winona if you didn't catch me saying "while I am at work". I work at school so that is awesome and everyone I work with are really friendly, stressed, but friendly. I am actualy at work right now! Hence, the time I have to write this. I would normally chose to name my music and get the artwork on my free time but, I don't have the ability to play music or use my earbuds. How rude would that be. I feel kind of awkward that I am not truly doing anything but, I can't do anything that I don't have to do and everything I have to do there is no means by which to do them.


OK, so i wrote that about two months ago and I am just gonna post it as it is. lol.

Let's start a new note

Something That Produces Results

Dear Mr. Blog,

Why does life seem to cycle?  Maybe not with the same leading male and female but, the situation.  Whether it be breaking a toe rounding a bed or making the hardest decision in life; to confront or not to confront?  You don't want to see these things happen to the ones you love but, you only seem to cycle the bad stuff.  Recycling garbage to make more garbage and it all just ends up littering the world anyways.  I know that that is a little bit presumptive of me Mr. Blog but, goodness, all I want is to make it all better.

I may not be even two decades old yet, but I feel a strange wisdom when it comes to a lot of situations because I went through them earlier then most.  While my generation was doing the party thing I was learning how to deal with some stuff I feel they are all starting to recognize as real.  All these feelings, just open up old wounds for me.  Things, I really wish wouldn't have left a scar but gives me comfort to know that you will be okay.  Life goes on, God will carry you and someone will find you and protect your heart from feeling that way ever again.  I know in my heart that everything will be fine and I hope you read this.

So, Mr. Blog, as the snow keeps falling and time flies by, I stand listening to Jimmy Eat World and watching Friday Night Lights with hope in my heart for the future.  I lied earlier to you, the good stuff cycles too, it's just no one talks about when everything is good it seems pompous.  So give me hell, I'll show you what it looks like to persevere.

Sincerely,

Stephanie Mae

Toodles.

Carboxylic Acid

So, Im sitting in CHemistry and I am so flippin' bored but, ti's the last time I will be in this class and I am so happy and thankful for that.  I finally caught up on the blogs I follow and man I felt like writing!  My winter break is in a week! Meaning that right now I will have finished all my exams in 7 days.  That is probably the best feeling ever, well, right after actually having finished my finals.  I'm a little anxious because I feel like everyone that sits behind me in Chemistry is probably reading what I am writing on here.  Creeping over my shoulder like I probably would except I wouldn't be able to read the fine print so I would be looking but there would be no comprehension.  I wish I had my glasses, they have been broken since September and people don't even know that I were them haha.  I kind of want some new frames too, the other ones just don't fit my personality.  It would be sweet if they were like Guccie or something but I would rather have the look that I wanted then the name brand.  Kind of like my Target band boots I am wearing right now.  May not be Uggz or Bearpaw or Emus but, I look good and I feel good because I spent under $30.00 on them.  How the crap do you spell Uggz I don't even remember. Wow. That is a step forward from my brand addiction I began last year right around now when I started to work at the Buckle.  Don't get me wrong, my jeans must be well made and I will not buy them from Target but, I can't get enough of the cardigans and such from there! I really want a plaid shirt I saw online from Forever 21 and let me tell you, it is ca-ute!  I want it to be a little bigger on me so that its loose and I don't know, I have been feeling boys clothes lately with cute girly accessories or my ripped jeans.  It just looks good and I have gotten lazy in my style.  I can't wait to make some money over break!!! I need to get back on my feet!  I know that is very materialistic of me and I should be looking forward to Christmas and family time but, I am so poor it is not even funny.  I have a really good idea for a present for my mother for Christmas.  I'm not gonna spill the beans because some how I think she will find out what it is and it isn't refined yet but, I'll post a picture (probs) of it when I am finished with it.  

I know everyone knows this but I just need to say, boys are so stupid.  They just can't figure out what a girl thinks is gross and what we think is awesome.  Number one, if you act like you couldn't wait to get rid of your last girlfriend, I will not want to talk to you! Look at your ex-girlfriend! I would not want to be her (or your rebound because you just broke up!).  I feel like the boys in college are worse then girls when it comes to rebound relationships.  I would rather talk to a boy who hasn't dated anyone then one that broke up with his girlfriend four days ago.  Number two,  if you want to call me, just do it.  I don't care how long it has been since the last time I talked to you as long as it isn't every five minutes!  If you wait a week and a half, I will move on because I'll think your not interested and it is just plain frustrating if you play hard to get.  That is my job.  Number three,  I would rather have you call me then text me.  Sub-note A, It makes me feel special. Sub-note B, I'm bad at using my qwerty keypad so I won't say as much as I want and sub-note C, quit filling up my inbox!!!  I would say stop using up my texts but, I have unlimited.  Anyways, that is the end of my rant on boys. Haha.

Toodles!

Inside Out Yeah

Ok, new train of thought and I will not mess this message up.  I'm feeling kind of strange today.  I don't know if I can explain it without alienating myself and others so I'm pretty much going to leave it at that and that I hate realizing the truth about people but whatever, life goes on and you meet new people and if they are meant to stay in your lives forever, you will stay in contact if not then well, they shaped you for the future.  I really wish that I had a job.  I mean, life would have been so much easier today because I would have gotten my important christmas shopping half way done!  Stupid college students with their stupid jobs that I should have.  I think that it is time to get it all together.  Over break, which starts in about a week and two days (actually that is exactly when it starts ha) I really want to get a routine going.  I watched the Victoria Secret Fashion Show tonight and it made me really self conscious and I even did a mini workout (more like the warm up to a warm up but, ya know) while watching it.  Did I mention I am extremely excited for this Christmas season!  I've already overplayed the Paul McCartney christmas song and I am simply having a wonderful Christmas time! Have you ever watched that music video!? It's flippin' 80's to the max! Haha. Ok I planned on getting some actual sleep tonight like, a dec REM sleep cycle so, excuse me.

22 days till Christmas!

Toodles!

Screening My Phone Calls

So, Thanksgiving break, what up.  It was really nice just to go home and see my family and my friends but, it got to a point that in the middle of my stay, I just wanted to get back to college.  I was sick of my mom, sick of having to let people know what I am doing and actually having to drive more then five minutes to do it!  I mean come on, there is not one decent restaurant that I would go to five minutes from where I live.  I will go on the freeway, through downtown traffic, then deal with one way streets and parallel parking before I will eat at the Corner Pub.  Trust me, it's as raunchy as it sounds.  But, when it came to seeing people that I miss from high school, I never wanted the night to end honestly.  I love my friends and could probably have played Rock Band for another good ten years before I would have decided it was time for a water break.  Isn't it crazy that when it comes the your family, the people that care about you the most and would do anything for you, are the people you want to get away from?  If I would have spent one more night watching movies and whatever with my family, I would have been begging to leave earlier and probably would have gotten my laundry done instead of paying seven dollars. [[Brief Intermission]] I am so happy that this blog saves itself randomly because I wrote so much more on this then what we see but I didn't save it or anything and clicked post and my internet wasn't working!! Blah! It's okay tho because there is still quite a bit of what I wrote.[[Brief Intermission Over]]  I have no idea what else I wrote on this.  Dangit!  Oh well it has been two days since I wrote the above statement and I am completely on a different mind set now.  I need a different topic. Haha.

Toodles!