Something That Produces Results

Dear Mr. Blog,

Why does life seem to cycle?  Maybe not with the same leading male and female but, the situation.  Whether it be breaking a toe rounding a bed or making the hardest decision in life; to confront or not to confront?  You don't want to see these things happen to the ones you love but, you only seem to cycle the bad stuff.  Recycling garbage to make more garbage and it all just ends up littering the world anyways.  I know that that is a little bit presumptive of me Mr. Blog but, goodness, all I want is to make it all better.

I may not be even two decades old yet, but I feel a strange wisdom when it comes to a lot of situations because I went through them earlier then most.  While my generation was doing the party thing I was learning how to deal with some stuff I feel they are all starting to recognize as real.  All these feelings, just open up old wounds for me.  Things, I really wish wouldn't have left a scar but gives me comfort to know that you will be okay.  Life goes on, God will carry you and someone will find you and protect your heart from feeling that way ever again.  I know in my heart that everything will be fine and I hope you read this.

So, Mr. Blog, as the snow keeps falling and time flies by, I stand listening to Jimmy Eat World and watching Friday Night Lights with hope in my heart for the future.  I lied earlier to you, the good stuff cycles too, it's just no one talks about when everything is good it seems pompous.  So give me hell, I'll show you what it looks like to persevere.

Sincerely,

Stephanie Mae

Toodles.

Carboxylic Acid

So, Im sitting in CHemistry and I am so flippin' bored but, ti's the last time I will be in this class and I am so happy and thankful for that.  I finally caught up on the blogs I follow and man I felt like writing!  My winter break is in a week! Meaning that right now I will have finished all my exams in 7 days.  That is probably the best feeling ever, well, right after actually having finished my finals.  I'm a little anxious because I feel like everyone that sits behind me in Chemistry is probably reading what I am writing on here.  Creeping over my shoulder like I probably would except I wouldn't be able to read the fine print so I would be looking but there would be no comprehension.  I wish I had my glasses, they have been broken since September and people don't even know that I were them haha.  I kind of want some new frames too, the other ones just don't fit my personality.  It would be sweet if they were like Guccie or something but I would rather have the look that I wanted then the name brand.  Kind of like my Target band boots I am wearing right now.  May not be Uggz or Bearpaw or Emus but, I look good and I feel good because I spent under $30.00 on them.  How the crap do you spell Uggz I don't even remember. Wow. That is a step forward from my brand addiction I began last year right around now when I started to work at the Buckle.  Don't get me wrong, my jeans must be well made and I will not buy them from Target but, I can't get enough of the cardigans and such from there! I really want a plaid shirt I saw online from Forever 21 and let me tell you, it is ca-ute!  I want it to be a little bigger on me so that its loose and I don't know, I have been feeling boys clothes lately with cute girly accessories or my ripped jeans.  It just looks good and I have gotten lazy in my style.  I can't wait to make some money over break!!! I need to get back on my feet!  I know that is very materialistic of me and I should be looking forward to Christmas and family time but, I am so poor it is not even funny.  I have a really good idea for a present for my mother for Christmas.  I'm not gonna spill the beans because some how I think she will find out what it is and it isn't refined yet but, I'll post a picture (probs) of it when I am finished with it.  

I know everyone knows this but I just need to say, boys are so stupid.  They just can't figure out what a girl thinks is gross and what we think is awesome.  Number one, if you act like you couldn't wait to get rid of your last girlfriend, I will not want to talk to you! Look at your ex-girlfriend! I would not want to be her (or your rebound because you just broke up!).  I feel like the boys in college are worse then girls when it comes to rebound relationships.  I would rather talk to a boy who hasn't dated anyone then one that broke up with his girlfriend four days ago.  Number two,  if you want to call me, just do it.  I don't care how long it has been since the last time I talked to you as long as it isn't every five minutes!  If you wait a week and a half, I will move on because I'll think your not interested and it is just plain frustrating if you play hard to get.  That is my job.  Number three,  I would rather have you call me then text me.  Sub-note A, It makes me feel special. Sub-note B, I'm bad at using my qwerty keypad so I won't say as much as I want and sub-note C, quit filling up my inbox!!!  I would say stop using up my texts but, I have unlimited.  Anyways, that is the end of my rant on boys. Haha.

Toodles!

Inside Out Yeah

Ok, new train of thought and I will not mess this message up.  I'm feeling kind of strange today.  I don't know if I can explain it without alienating myself and others so I'm pretty much going to leave it at that and that I hate realizing the truth about people but whatever, life goes on and you meet new people and if they are meant to stay in your lives forever, you will stay in contact if not then well, they shaped you for the future.  I really wish that I had a job.  I mean, life would have been so much easier today because I would have gotten my important christmas shopping half way done!  Stupid college students with their stupid jobs that I should have.  I think that it is time to get it all together.  Over break, which starts in about a week and two days (actually that is exactly when it starts ha) I really want to get a routine going.  I watched the Victoria Secret Fashion Show tonight and it made me really self conscious and I even did a mini workout (more like the warm up to a warm up but, ya know) while watching it.  Did I mention I am extremely excited for this Christmas season!  I've already overplayed the Paul McCartney christmas song and I am simply having a wonderful Christmas time! Have you ever watched that music video!? It's flippin' 80's to the max! Haha. Ok I planned on getting some actual sleep tonight like, a dec REM sleep cycle so, excuse me.

22 days till Christmas!

Toodles!

Screening My Phone Calls

So, Thanksgiving break, what up.  It was really nice just to go home and see my family and my friends but, it got to a point that in the middle of my stay, I just wanted to get back to college.  I was sick of my mom, sick of having to let people know what I am doing and actually having to drive more then five minutes to do it!  I mean come on, there is not one decent restaurant that I would go to five minutes from where I live.  I will go on the freeway, through downtown traffic, then deal with one way streets and parallel parking before I will eat at the Corner Pub.  Trust me, it's as raunchy as it sounds.  But, when it came to seeing people that I miss from high school, I never wanted the night to end honestly.  I love my friends and could probably have played Rock Band for another good ten years before I would have decided it was time for a water break.  Isn't it crazy that when it comes the your family, the people that care about you the most and would do anything for you, are the people you want to get away from?  If I would have spent one more night watching movies and whatever with my family, I would have been begging to leave earlier and probably would have gotten my laundry done instead of paying seven dollars. [[Brief Intermission]] I am so happy that this blog saves itself randomly because I wrote so much more on this then what we see but I didn't save it or anything and clicked post and my internet wasn't working!! Blah! It's okay tho because there is still quite a bit of what I wrote.[[Brief Intermission Over]]  I have no idea what else I wrote on this.  Dangit!  Oh well it has been two days since I wrote the above statement and I am completely on a different mind set now.  I need a different topic. Haha.

Toodles!